A promise~

When I look at my phone, her message automatically appear in my mind.

" Don't be frightened, just be brave to do what you can do. You rally need to work harder to score higher credit and pass all your examinations with flying colours. You determined to achieve your ambition, right? "

- my mommy

I received it when my first day of orientation came to the end. After i read this, i found that my face got wet and droplets of tears continued to fall. I made a promise to myself and my family - YES!

My dear mommy had already taken her flight to go back to my hometown, Sabah in the afternoon. The days before, she accompanied me to come to KL for settle down. We had a visit at my university, went for a shopping and movie, as well as we were having a war in the kitchen as both of us didn't know how to cook well actually. How amazing is she in my life? She is not well in cooking but she prepared all the ingredients and cooked for me; she felt tired but she insisted to watch a movie with me before we went to bed; she keen to eat "snowflakes" (her favourite) but she rejected and said "don't" when i asked her to buy because i had sore throat and flu.

She is the one i love - my dearest mommy

No matter what happen, my lovely mommy always be at my side. She is the one support and encourage me the most in my life. I know that she keep worrying me as i leave her apart to further my studies and i need to live independently at an unfamiliar place. Furthermore, she also worries that i unable to resist pressure or stress. I will share everything with her everyday through texts or calls. However, there is an exception for me. I decided not to tell her that i got hurt and everything that looked bad to me. I feel guilty but i don't want she worries about me and experiences the feeling of helpless because of me. The feelings are unspeakable and indescribable when someone you love and care face problems but you unable to do anything.

I always ask myself : Is that correct for me to do so? I am not sure about that but at least she feels relieved. Maybe this is my way to love her.

My lovely mother, sisters and brother

She never know that how much does she mean to me. She is my driving force to study hard as to implement my greatest achievement. My family let me know that I am not alone, they will always be my backup anytime,anywhere. I'm glad and appreciate that i born in this family which fulls of loves and cares. I am the luckiest one.